Tuesday, November 1, 2011

This Morning.

I've had a rough morning. 
Jacob has decided that 5ish or so is a suitable time to wake up everyday.
I've tried to convince him otherwise but he doesn't seem to believe me.
And when he wakes up, he's up. 
No cuddling or holding or laying in my bed. He's ready to eat, play and climb.
Which means no easing into the day. I have to be alert and on the ball.
I wasn't happy about that this morning.
I was instantly in a bad mood. 

It didn't take long for Ethan to wake up, since he could hear his little brother up and running around.
They soon started pulling and rolling around on one another which never ends good.
It wasn't long before I heard crying and screaming coming from them and it wasn't even 7am yet.
Breakfast wasn't going well, the kids were whiny, I needed coffee.
I started getting frustrated with the kids, being too harsh and short.
I complained and whined to my husband.
I went to the bathroom and cried for a minute.
All this just made things worse, obviously.

I dropped Ethan off at preschool, late, and headed to Starbucks. I needed it!
As I sat in the drive-thru I saw that a friend posted this on facebook.

It hit me right in the face.
It's not like this is a new concept, but I needed to read those words.
I'm sitting here crying and complaining, to my loving husband, in my cozy house about my two beautiful kids, while I really should be thanking God for all this and so much more.
Oh, how selfish and ungrateful I felt right then.
Now that doesn't mean I'm going to discount my feelings of exhaustion or being overwhelmed, but I most definitely do not need to take it out on anyone else, especially those I love the most.
 There are far too many days I choose to focus on what I don't have or what is not going my way, when I really should be focusing on all the greatness God has blessed me with.
It's really so simple when I think about it, so why do I make it so hard.
So I'm choosing to change my attitude today. 

Thank You God!
Thank You for all I have!
Thank you for all you have given me!
Thank you!

Have you thanked God today?

1 Thessalonians 5:18
Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus.


Chelsea said...

I had the same exact experience after I hosted a 30 Hour Famine with my student ministry- I was supposed to be leading the group but I was so struck by my ungratefulness!

God has blessed us so richly. :)

Rachel said...

I'm such a bad grumbler about everything! Argh...God must get so frustrated with me. He gives me what I pray for and then I moan about it.

Thanks so much for this reminder to be grateful!

hannah singer said...

amen, adrian!! thanks for the reminder!! love to you, so grateful for YOU!

Janna said...

beautiful reminder that I needed since mine woke me up at 4:20 today :)

Gee said...

Oh thank you dear girl...I needed this post just as much as the next wife/mama/gee/sista...etc. Love you to pieces!!!